I am currently 6 weeks pregnant with my third child. I am divorced from my first child’s father, have a failed toxic relationship with my second child’s father, and am now “knocked up” by my friend of 12 years, who met me for coffee or communicated via email and phone convos over the years, but our paths didn’t really intersect until now. I’m 6 months free of my toxic bond; feeling like the world’s my oyster, and basically we hooked up. He doesn’t have any interest in being a father. I cannot bear to be a single mom of 3 children. I’m going to see how it’s doing on a scan next week. Not sure what the hell is the right decision to make here. I feel like my life’s been a steady stream of one crappy decision after another, although I do count my blessings.