T actually called me. I didn't ask her to. It was so helpful talking to her. She offered support and acknowledgment, validation, and of course was positive. But she didn't tell me what to do, as in bossing me around. She said she's willing to do a session with me, too. She wants me to email her in the morning to check in.
Sometimes I forget how good she's been to me. There's a reason I was attached to her and why I've stayed in contact for 5 extra years. I'm glad I reached out to her. Still struggling, but feel less alone.