Thanks, LT. Yeah, L also suggested I tell her I don't need the positivity. But I guess today it worked. Like she told me my emotions will come in waves. And tomorrow, my emotions might only be at 80% instead of 100%. She told me right now I'm in emotional mind and I need some time for logical mind to come back online. Then I can use wise-mind to make a decision. But to not make any decisions now.

You know what I think helped me most next to her support? She made me feel special by just calling me. She still had my number accessible. And she took time to reach out. She was at home and one of her kids walked in. So I assume she wasn't working then. Sometimes just knowing you're still important and wanted is enough to get you to the next step. I'm not even close to being at 80%, but I can say I'm safe now.

I did do one thing bad. I texted L about T, and the last thing I said was "at least I have someone who's stable".