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Originally Posted by ArtleyWilkins
Since my husband died, I have really had to work on this. I don’t know that there’s a secret to it so much as it has just been something I had to initially force myself to do, but somewhere along the way I have really grown to enjoy the complete “me” time. I don’t have to entertain anyone but myself and that’s rather freeing. I don’t have to keep conversations going or wonder if that friend really wants to do what I want to do.
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I get this. The thing is that I have no problem running errands, walking a mall or even walk around a flea market or something. I can do all that just fine alone. I guess the problem areas are when it’s more of an “organized” setting like a winery, concert or festival. I think people would just think I’m weird or something but Comrade made a good point by saying people are just doing their own thing. The H and I are so far apart as far as interest are concerned. And honestly as time goes on we are pretty much just co-existing. I have a couple friends but they have their own lives-busy with the family. I never reproduced so those relationships and me don’t really fit together anymore-though at 45..most of my friends kids are in early, mid, late teenage years. Still their lives are consumed with sports, cheer and other stuff-as it should be. I guess I have to get myself to that point where I actually enjoy my own company and then maybe the rest will be easier.