I feel very tired. I have had the studies that take a lot of time and I have almost had no time to do house-work and so on.

It has built up. I become sick if I look at all this clutter. High tension in my body.

Do you remember that I took some benzos the other day? Well, I fell again and took more this day. It is scary! I am so frightened to not be able to cut it down before I get my normal prescription from my GP. The aim is to not use more than what is allowed by my GP.

I tried to help myself by filling the pillbox with the legal dozes and for 1 1/2 week + what I need to take to reduce what is too much.

I understand that I have to take this seriously and make some strategies to use to stop to use extra Benzos when feeling far from OK.

Frightened! Very frightened!