I slept really strangely, very unsettled. It was 8.5 hours though which is a huge improvement from a few months ago.

Just got back from the gym - lots of sweating and effort. I had to sit in my car in the parking lot at the gym for a half hour afterwards to settle down so I could drive home.

I'm still feeling low, but I managed to take a shower. I hadn't showered in a number of days.

I'm trying to brush my teeth but I find it difficult to do. When I really push myself, I can do it and am satisfied that I did brush, but getting that push is really difficult.

I'm working on the mindfulness for my anxiety. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. It's good to make a little progress after having bad anxiety for such a long time.

My pdoc says it's likely that therapy will make the biggest difference for my anxiety and that the meds will eventually no longer be necessary. The depression is another story though, but who knows, maybe it'll improve as I get better at reducing my anxiety.

I'm on 2 antidepressants at the moment and my pdoc says that is remarkable because they're not pushing me into hypomania. Shows how heavy the depression really is.