I'm not really planning on for sure doing anything, but I know full well I am capable of instantly getting to that place and refusing help let alone reaching out for it, and it just seems worse these days. But I was JUST hospitalized (for manic psychosis, not suicidal stuff) and that did shyt other than prove to my pdoc I should probably be on meds. I know no one gives a shyt if you say "I wanted to/planned on it yesterday, but this morning is ok so I'm good, but later in the day or tomorrow I'm sure I'll regret not (insert preparation action here)".