I’m so sorry Scarlet, I have been following the thread but just don’t know what to say other than I think you are doing the right thing by taking the break. I totally get that it feels like you are missing precious time with her, I think I’d feel the same. But I think it’s for the best. See how it feels to make that choice and not be triggered by her constantly. I know it hurts in a different way but I think it’s a good move right now. Then you can decide what you want to do.