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Wanderer of Distant Stars
Member Since May 2012
Location: North Carolina, USA. Originally New York
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Sep 06, 2024 at 11:12 PM
Exhausted is not a strong enough word for what I am feeling. Just everything this week has been so overwhelming. My dad got hit in the eye and its real bad so he might need surgery - I am beside myself. Thinking of going to the doctor with him on the 18th, I might have to.
I realized tonight I have to write my book and tell my testimony. The years of struggling with bipolar and alcoholism to the life I am living today, 4 years clean and sober, and mostly stable on very little medication, sleeping sound. Surviving jail, then homelessness, rehab, hopelessness, to the life I have always prayed for. Going out to Selma tonight and joining that recovering community was just what I needed to get me going on my journey. I have never been more determined. Incredibly exhausted, but never more determined - even with the $27000 car that I am repaying - it's just another thing in life I just have to suck up and take care of.
Chapter one starts tomorrow morning! @Nammu - 3 years sounds so crazy for a convenient parking spot, YIKES! @Blue_Bird I hope you're feeling better, I am dying to see Beetlejuice myself - @raspberrytorte I hope you're coming a bit out of your depression - @Blueberrybook - girl when my period comes near I get mad really, really fast, like boiling mad for no reason - it's not just you, trust me, lol. @Rosi700 - keep pushing forward girl, God's got you! 
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