I'm so sorry, Scarlet.
It is excruciating when the person who you turn to for support is also the person who caused the pain.
Starting over again would suck, there are no two ways about it.
Trusting somebody whose actions have caused you pain is extremely difficult too.
I wish you peace with whatever decision you make.
Lost
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'Somewhere up above the great divide
Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few
A man can see his way clear to the light
'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin