I was feeling pretty good this morning--exercised, showered, washed & folded a load of laundry, cleaned the kitchen. Then, my daughter announced her school is having a meetup on Thursday. She is home-schooled so doesn't see other kids her age much. Unfortunely, H has to go into work that day and can't take her. I told H & my daughter there was no way I could drive her; the meetup is in downtown Houston, and I have bad driving anxiety, and I do not drive in most of Houston and especially not in downtown Houston.
Now, I feel bad and like a loser because if I were a normal mom, I could drive my daughter to this meetup without a problem. I'm feeling so anxious and panicked now and am beating up on myself. Times like this I really hate being me
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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