I don't understand knit my Ts meds phrase. Do you mean basically that it's none of my business? For one, she told me about them and two, not being on them is affecting her and affecting me.

As for why infertility is off the table is because I don't feel she can have any understanding AND I feel she has disrespected me. I'm a part of CNBC group. I've posted about this to them. It hurts all of us, of course them indirectly. I just don't think that she deserves to know anything about this topic. She especially doesn't have the right to bring it up. It's too deep of a grief/wound for her to be flippant or careless about. Like LT said, I get to decide what I do and don't want to talk about. It's my therapy.