Hi R,

I'm sorry to say that I feel really let down by you regarding your response to my realisation.

I knew the timing wasn't ideal, but I couldn't hold it for six weeks.

Having said that, I'm beginning to wish I had done so.

At least then I would be able to hold on to the sense that you knew what's going on.

Feeling like you don't understand that is a difficult place to be in.

I need you to understand the impact this discovery is having on me.

It might be a new stage, but it feels like I'm grieving all over again without the insulation that shock provides.