Just curious, why does T only do short term? That is really rough about the insurance
Glad your session went well! Have you tried writing down how it feels when you are in that good place before you lose it ? It might help to read it when you lose connection?
I can see why it would help to know that she has cried and no I dont think is sadistic but I do wonder why she tells you that though and if it actually helps in the long run ?