L, I wonder what you would think of this: "the more you pursue feeling better all the time, the less satisfied you become, as pursuing something only reinforces the fact that you lack it in the first place." That was me in therapy. In a nutshell. I didn't even know exactly what I was pursuing anymore, even talking with you had started to leave me feeling "less-than". I keep saying I'm broken. I'm not ****ing broken. I'm HUMAN. And ain't no therapy that can "fix" being human.