Welcome @been14years, I can read your English just fine

Yes I agree with @Open Eyes about crying being a good way to release grief and sadness.

Perhaps he grew up with the notion that the man of the house must provide for everyone. So maybe that explains the will and the funeral arrangements, which is actually a responsible attitude.

He has a lot going on. If you have a religious / spiritual practice, it might be time to "lean on it" and get support from outsiders.