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Old Sep 20, 2024, 05:26 AM
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I'm not quite sure what is wrong with me.

Everything seems cold and empty and my brain is mush.

Yesterday my husband commented, "You've really been a lot quieter lately than usual. A lot on your mind?"

The truth is I have nothing on my mind.

My mind is a complete blank.

I'm lethargic, lacking energy, unmotivated, just want to sleep all day, haven't really been doing anything (besides vacuuming and cleaning the apartment... making myself do those things because of our flea situation), lacking pleasure in things that used to delight me, and not really looking forward to anything, even if our daughter's birthday is coming up and a week later our KMFDM show in Milwaukee. I want to cry, but I'm too numb to cry. I feel like a loser who contributes nothing. I'm gaining weight and I don't know why because I haven't changed my diet.

I'm just fcked right now.
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