I'm still scared of seeing her.
I'm scared of "catching" whatever negativity she is putting down.
One of the things we are supposed to do is visualize these interactions. I am mentally running from that each time I do it.
It hurts to visualize these interactions and it actually causes me panic.
I'm meeting with a new therapist tomorrow. I've seen her twice before and she's much more insistent than the one I've been seeing all along. Much more "you need to do this".
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