@Scooter9:

Thanks for the support. I know we're all supposed to adore our pets, and i do love her, i just didn't consider the reality of how demanding her daily care would be. I was flying high on hypomania when i got her, and she's so cute, everyone says so, complete strangers comment on it, i fell in love with her right away.

Then reality set in. I tried to give her away several times when she was young, but she is really attached to me, and couldn't adjust. She'll be twelve soon so perhaps there are just max four more years with her -- not that i want her to die, but i am looking forward to having my freedom again.

I hesitated to be honest about how stressed i am with her care, but if i widened your eyes as to the reality of caring for a dog, i am pleased. My doctor says dogs keep us healthy, and it is only the second week of walking her regularly so it could improve. He DOES have a point -- the exercise and outdoors are good for me.

Doubt i'll feel that way in the dead of Winter tho.