Presidential election stuff of actual candidates campaigning I really only see if I turn on national news (NH tends to choose local stuff when they can, not that seeing Ayotte and Craig fight using us as a medium is any better). I see Trump v Harris if I look at fb (and it's hilarious because I have a very conservative, but also mean and insulting family and some very scared liberal friends but my absolute favorite are two friends soooo fking over it that they're bombing everyone and making so many straw mans there will be no crows on whatever continent they're on).

But yeah. At this point it's just a comedic tragedy I have but a single small part of that I will do as I see fit. Entertaining, and when I want I can escape to my Murderbot series (Murderbot is the most relatable entity on this fking planet. Except it's not on this planet. Murderbot wouldn't take the election seriously either, but it would be the one ending up saying "fking humans. always trying to kill each other and I have to try to keep them from doing that.")

VERMIN SUPREME! PONIES AND TOOTHBRUSHES!

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I had my meeting for the apartment today, and HOLY SHITE IS THIS PLACE AMAZING! It is probably the safest apartment I have ever, EVER seen (women only, policewoman on site 24/7, limited visiting hours, cameras in the halls, the two people running the place checking up on you if they don't see you in a bit and they're going to sign an ROI with my case manager for any sort of crisis, no smoking (which is great because cigarette smell is a huge trigger that is INESCAPABLE), no drugs allowed--I don't think that'll stop anyone until they get caught though). Seemed pretty clean too. A lot of people stay there for years...some times MANY years. Good location. She didn't say I wasn't allowed to have pets (I told her I had two because I'M TAKING MY FKING KITTENS BACK though they're probably big boys now. Big baby bois )

My case manager was bursting when we talked, and I called the psych unit because the NP knows me really well and that I'm super self-sabotaging and that there was a good chance I'd skip this meeting, but I told the nurse that answered I went and she handed me the phone to the NP and they were both so excited they were going to spread word to the other staff. My case manager made a face, I don't even know what face, but it was a face, when I told her it was a women's only apartment. Maybe it was a "I can tell you would've ended up screwing half the male neighbors (no, more like two, CM!) and it would totally backfire because then word would get out and you'd be further taken advantage of, but haha you can't do that!" Okay it definitely was that look.

(...when some of the psych evaluators in the ED, the psychiatrist that periodically checks in on you while waiting for transfer, and the IP NP know you just as well if not better than your outpatient team--maybe better because they see you in full trigger mode but also as you get better and you can't cancel appointments).

I know I'm writing a lot but I am sooo fking excited. I am going to have both independence and the ability to nap in the middle of the day without worrying about my backpack being stolen, and that is a FIRST! Also I have yet to take zee mid day Ritalin so the thoughts are thoughting (or I'm heading up, we'll see after I swallow my methylphenidate that makes me not want to drink).

But also my pdoc wants me on the morning med run until I see her next because they don't trust me to drive. I'm still going to, but not a lot. I want to ease my way because I know... (edited super long tangent)