@LadyShadow sorry it was a rough night. One thing someone told me though is that it's kind of a good thing when you *can* fight with somebody because that means you're comfortable with letting negative emotions out around them. Sure, the way someone could fight can be incredibly toxic, but more "arguing" than "fighting" is good (I'm not sure of the difference, my guess is that arguing never involves anything that could put someone under arrest, but this isn't my department I'm just relaying some stuff I've been told).

I hope you can take it easy on yourself, my friend