I'm so sorry, Scarlet.

I relate to the sense of distance that you describe.
I'm horrified that she would blame you for her choices.

I am sorry that you are so aware of the consequences that any potential pregnancy would have for the baby.

That is so much to have to hold.

'How do I get back to neutral with her?'

Isn't that the question...

Sending strength and hope that you can find a way through.

Take care,

Lost