I'm so sorry, Scarlet.
I relate to the sense of distance that you describe.
I'm horrified that she would blame you for her choices.
I am sorry that you are so aware of the consequences that any potential pregnancy would have for the baby.
That is so much to have to hold.
'How do I get back to neutral with her?'
Isn't that the question...
Sending strength and hope that you can find a way through.
Take care,
Lost
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'Somewhere up above the great divide
Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few
A man can see his way clear to the light
'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin