I've been really, really struggling with relationship insecurities-fears of being alone/everyone hating me/going to lose the few friends I have and never make new ones again are constantly going through my brain. For example, I texted something to my friend in a stupid way that could have come off as a little aggressive. I immediately texted sorry but we were in the middle of a conversation and she just stopped responding after this. So my brain is spiraling and my anxiety is really high about how she is responding. I'm really worried I hurt her or ticked her off. I'm trying to remind myself that people can make mistakes without a relationship falling apart, especially when people apologize for their mistakes. Hopefully, she can still get together on Sunday. If these plans stay, it will help stop the spiraling.

While at work, my depression was lower than it has been in weeks so maybe, just maybe, it's coming to an end. Or, is at least going to lighten up a bit. I'm still struggling with unwanted thoughts, especially in the evening and night time, but a little reprieve today was very nice.