I don't know what my problem is as of late. I don't know why my anxiety has been so out of control! I don't know if it's the change of seasons or what. I feel like I'm withdrawing off a med, like I'm IP and they haven't given me my meds in two days or something. I feel light headed and dizzy and like I'm going to lose control. Hacked off all my beautiful long hair tonight and am filled with regret. I suppose it'll grow back. And my hair grows pretty fast thankfully. I haven't dyed it yet because I ran out of time.

My anxiety is rising to intolerable levels, and I don't know why! I blame sertraline. Luckily I see my psychiatrist on October 7th. I'm going to make her listen to me. I know she'll just say, "Well you're on both gabapentin and diazepam. Those should help your anxiety." Apparently at the moment they're not, lady. I just feel sick. I've even lost my appetite, which is bizarre for me because I have a fat *** and am usually hungry all the time.

I don't know. Guess I just needed to vent.

Mourning the loss of my hair.

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