@MuddyBoots I am so sorry you're having so much difficulty. The worst thing about EDs is you're NEVER happy with your body no matter how much weight you lose. I remember I was WAY beyond hospitalization with my weight at several points in my life, and even then I hated my body and thought I was fat. You could disappear into practically nothing and still think you're fat & need to lose weight. Sigh.

I'm still struggling with compulsive exercise and I know it's not all OCD but ED too. My weight is perfect accorind to my PCP and I need to maintain. I lost some weight running but the past month or so I have been maintaining which is good I know intellectually but ED thoughts definitely wish I'd lose more