I never do shyt like that with my diazepam. What is WRONG with me. I know it's technically an overdose because I took more than I'm prescribed, but it's not lethal, and I have such a high tolerance, and it's not like I'm TRYING to kill myself. If I were I would have taken the whole bottle. We picked it up from the pharmacy today and both my husband and I spaced putting it in the locked med box.

I don't feel right mentally right now. I don't trust myself. I think I need to take a nap or something. I feel weird mentally. I feel like I'm going to lose control and do something impulsive I'll regret. My therapist said I need to do things to get myself out of my body? I'm not sure what that means exactly. Maybe I should just take a nap and then have a freak out and dye my hair black. We're seeing Carcass and Hatebreed in Green Bay next Friday. I'd like to have my hair dyed by then.

Maybe I'll take a walk later, but it's hot out. I just finished cleaning the apartment. We're winning the war against the fleas! I haven't gotten a flea bite in days. Unfortunately I have flea bite scars on my legs though, which really sucks. My legs look awful.

Okay. I'm going to take a nap and then lose control dyeing my hair later tonight. I'll have a complete dye freak out! That'll be good.