Ironic... life is so ironic....

My pedophile... my.. pedophile.. caught.. when I was 30..something... and.. plea bargianed out... and me.. not wanting to add my voice... to others...

I went to lawyer... years later... I wanted "closure"... I wanted to confront him.. to tell him what he did.. to my life.. how he "destroyed" me... the 12 year old me.. the 13 year old me... the 14 year old me.. the 15 year old me... and the future adult me...

I went to one of the top criminal lawyers... hey.. go to the best right???

The lawyer told me... that I risked my future.. if during the confrontation... the pedophile had a "heart attack"... or "suffered"... any injury...like emotional distress... that this old man... or his family.. on his behalf.. could then sue me...

Amazing... isn't it... they rape us... they sodimize us.. and then.. there they are... gots all the rights.. and.. me.. none...

I don't know....perhaps.. we should give the world over to the abusers...
sorry deeply triggered...by something else....