Going on 8 months since we last met. I wish we'd had a better ending. I still struggle with wanting to say goodbye. I'm not angry anymore, I worked through and let go of that, but I miss having you to talk to. It doesn't help that I'm feeling rather broken again right now. It would be pointless to try to come back, and I don't want anyone else. The short-term t was okay, she got me on the right track to let go the anger, but she felt useless for anything else. I don't know. Maybe I just still miss the you that I now know doesn't exist anywhere but in my head. I don't know.

And ha. I can get away with saying that here.