Yes, I'm BP and I am in therapy but just really started in November, so just a short period of time. I have discussed the abyss with both my pdoc and T and the things that can trigger it. I just finished a group therapy for BP about a month or so ago and I'm starting a new cognitive group therapy on Monday. I'm trying to make some positive changes to improve my life. Being BP also means that you change cycles for no apparent reason, that's more frustrating when you are at the bottom end of the spectrum and don't know why. I do however cycle from things that trigger my emotions. I'm dealing with so many things right now in my personal life that it is no wonder the abyss is my home. I've been constantly changing meds for 4 years and have yet to find something that makes me feel 'ok' for the most part. It's all so frustrating and depressing in itself. Being safe is quite the challenge and I really don't see me climbing out any time soon. Thanks for the hugs. Much needed and appreciated.