You could be right @MuddyBoots I've had a lot of trauma I haven't worked through and haven't had support/understanding for and have tons of trouble calming my fight or flight response as an adult, every time any trauma hits me now, I get PTSD from it, ugh and I have flashbacks of so many traumatic events, pdoc wants me to do EMDR but all the therapists who do EMDR near me are a 30-45 min drive away, it just seems like so much trouble to set up and it's a financial burden too having to make all the copays for treatment