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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow
@ Blue_Bird You accomplish so much! You have such a drive to keep busy. I don't do a fourth of what you do and I'm still tired all the time. Just the kitty shelter alone is a huge gift to the kitties and the world. I admire you so much. Please don't put yourself down. |
Thank you! That means a lot to me. I guess I just have this instilled belief that I must have a job or something to be productive or have done something meaningful in my life. I tried working, I tried 4 retail jobs last year in the span of like 9 months and I ended up leaving them all because it was too overwhelming and made me really unstable. I mean I guess I’m proud of myself cause I did stick with one for 3 months and became a talent captain but still I couldn’t handle it. I can’t handle traditional work. Which is why I just volunteer now. It’s a lot less stress. Idk why but I guess maybe because society instills the belief in people that they must work to be productive members of society I feel self conscious that I don’t work or worried that I’m being “lazy”. So I guess that ends up making me feel like all the stuff I do, exercise, art, music, etc all my hobbies and stuff is pointless cause it’s not moving me in any direction. I know that’s not true really but part of me is stuck on that belief that the stuff I’m doing isn’t important or doesn’t really matter