I wish I could help out more, but honestly I'm in the similar boat of "I want to do x, but shoving all idealism aside, can I?"

I kinda hate the fact that I'm expected to do more than survive the day and plan for winter. I do find stress and having a schedule with limited flexibility makes my symptoms worse. There's so much in the air right now and not a lot of predictability; it's hard to commit to something (for me anyway).