Thank you, Artie. Even though I wish you weren't suffering, it's nice to know that I'm not alone. I wish my L would do something really really grievous, so I could leave. What? I don't know. Or just give up and let me go. Which she won't. I know she won't. She's hurt me deeply by her pregnancy even though I know it's not like she was trying to hurt me. And then I'm just suffering more and more and I can't seem to stop. This mess is at least 50% on me, my reactivity. I own that. I think she's owning her part? Today it seemed like she wasn't blaming. I just wish there was a clear answer.