@raspberrytorte I'm sorry your mom treats you that way. I hope the med changes your scary psychiatrist lady gave you work out!

@Rosi700 I'm sorry you're struggling with SI. Hang in there-we're here for you!

@BeyondtheRainbow Sorry to hear you are having such a headache with getting your meds. In this day and age, you shouldn't have to deal with it!

One of my classes really made me laugh today, so that was nice. They all cheered like I had given them a million bucks when I squished a little bug that was on the board. Except for one kid-he pretended to cry his eyes out.

Something at work caused the SI thoughts to sneak back in though. This time around with these thoughts, my faith has been helping me (I usually have some sort of faith crisis every time I experience SI because I don't typically feel God's presence). This time around, I actually feel like He's helping me and is showing me different ways people would miss me if I was gone. I'm trying to hold onto this instead of letting the thoughts spiral.