I’ve been withdrawing, and getting sadder and sadder. I did reach out to my pdoc but otherwise I’ve not been sharing how I feel. It seems so ….i don’t know unworthy. I did confess to my pdoc that I’ve been having brief thoughts of dying. But tonight it was worse. I reached out to 988. I have to say it was successful. I used chat and we talked for over an hour. I realized that I have felt unworthy to share my sadness and depression. I did pick up the new prescription of seroquel. I really need to try it tonight. I really need the sleep. Something needs to change. I’m withdrawing from people both online and irl.