Glad you can get in a little sooner, @Nammu. I understand not taking the depressive side as seriously as the manic side. It does feel safer when you're not in any sort of major episode looking at it rationally, and of course docs tend to downplay it as long as it's not mixed, psychotic, and/or actively suicidal. Depression is very real and awful though. I also know you're a very strong person, and that you'll get through it like the badass inspiration you are