Hey Scarlet,
I'm sorry you're struggling so much with this.
It makes sense in light of everything.
I know it is hard to feel as though you have a time limit.
All you have to do is one day at a time.
Hugs,
Lost
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'Somewhere up above the great divide
Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few
A man can see his way clear to the light
'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin