Had a decent day. I guess. I didn’t go anywhere though or do anything. I need to get out of the house tomorrow. I’ve been inside too much. It rained all day today and is gonna rain most of the day tomorrow but I plan on taking a walk in the morning with my umbrella.

I’m looking forward to going to sleep later. I am gonna stay up till around midnight. It’s 8:30pm now. I tend to sleep better and for longer when I go to sleep later in the night. If I go to sleep early I end up wide awake a couple hours later and unable to get back to sleep.

It’s been a long day though. I’ve been up since like 4am. I did sketch something today. I need to get out tomorrow though I’m getting really bad cabin fever. I’ve been isolating in my apartment for 3 days and it’s negatively affecting me now so I definitely need to get outside even if it’s just for a walk downtown.

Maybe I’ll meditate some tonight. My anxiety is pretty bad though it always is in the afternoons and evenings. I started dissociating a bit earlier today but managed to pull myself back.

Tuesday I have an appointment with my psychiatrist. It’s been quite awhile since I’ve seen him since he rescheduled our appointment twice, and I rescheduled it once so it’s been a big gap of like 3 months or more between our last visit. I’m gonna see if he can put my Thorazine back to 200mg. I sleep better on that than on 100mg. Aside from that I might see if I can get back on something for anxiety like hydroxyzine. Hopefully though cutting out the coffee helps. It should. I mean 6-7 cups of coffee a day is horrible for anxiety