Well I canceled dinner with the family, I just couldn’t handle the long drive in the dark. In part because it would be so easy to crash at those speeds and I don’t trust myself fully yet. My thoughts are dark. So I forced myself to go to the monthly potluck here. I didn’t stay long but I was more open tonight. My aunts best friend asked why I had to go, and I told her I am depressed and it’s hard to be with people. So I’m opening up a little. A friend over heard a did the I heart you sign. I’ve had a tolerable night watching my pbs shows. One is set in Amsterdam and is pretty dark but the people are close. They fight big pharma, the far right and big agriculture there too.