Thank you all. It means a lot to me. I really try to improve. But I'm also not going to lie about where I'm at. I don't know how long this is going to take me, but I am trying.
L says that my pain is valid. And she said that she can handle all my emotions even anger, and she won't leave me because of it. She says she loves my anger, rage, and hateful parts. That they protect me and stand up for myself. They cue me/us when there's an injustice. And that my anger loves me. She also said that some people just can't handle all the emotions. It's not that they don't care. It's just their limitations.
I try real hard to be good.