Pink sweetie - So sorry about your relapse. Remember, those new tools can be throw out too. Tonight, they can be thrown out. You don't need them any more than an alcoholic needs gin.

The urges can be noted, mindfully, let yourself feel it rather than try to avoid it, and it will pass. Give it 30 min. or so, and it will pass. It's called "urge surfing". The urges come like waves...surf it...it will crash and fade. Another will follow, and you can do it again.

"What we resist, persists"

BIG hugs, Slippers