I am relly struggling with something and the problem is I have no idea if its just me or if this is real.
I am having the hardest time being open with my T. I have been seeing her for 5 months now. She is the first T I have ever seen in my life, so I have no idea how this is suppose to go or feel.

She is really great, always patient, pushes but gently. She even told me the other day that she knows she has me do things that are hard sometimes and that she would be doing me no justice if she didn't help me progress.

I know she means well, The problem is, I feel hardley any connection at all. People may say well then she is not the right one for you but I have no idea. I have never really trusted anyone in my life and definately not with some of the information I did slightly share with her. Somehow I think it's just me. I was engaged to a man that I had known for 5 years, he was wonderful but to be honest I never really had any connection to him in that sense. It was more hes my best friend we get along great why not. I never did share anything about my abuse with him at all.

So its hard for me to know what to do. Whether I should continue seeing or or try someone else. I hear some great stories of people with their T and I think whats wrong with my picture.
But again, my cycle has always been to not let anyone ever get close to me and if they do get rid of them before they do you.

Ughh. I can't tell if its just me and it really bothers me. I mean maybe I should share this with her. Maybe I have not allowed her any connection to me, maybe I am just not available to that. Im just confused with all of this and don't know what to do from here.

Hanging on