Thanks, Slippers. It wasn't actually a relapse. I was still self-injuring without the razor blades in the house-- just using other stuff. I like what you said about the urges coming in waves. Sometimes it seems so constant for me, but I believe you are right. It was the same thing with quitting smoking. I thought I would crave a cigarette every second-- the cravings came in waves, and I got over them. I don't know that I am ready to throw them out tonight. But I am willing to give the passing of urges a try.