Hi Scarlet,

I'm glad you had a tolerable session with L, thanks to all the safeguards you put into place.

'I don't want a virtual relationship with my therapist.'

That really resonates with me.
I'm sorry this is so painful for you, and that your safe place (with L) is threatened in such a specifically triggering way.

If you can soothe the parts of you that need that soothing, I hope you can find the strength to lean into the support that L can provide.

I understand how stressful it is to know that your time with your safe person is limited.
I'm hoping that you can find a way through that works for you...because that is the most important element.

Hugs if wanted,

Lost