I can't take the pills because of paranoia and stress of trying to keep them down while metabolizing. I feel like she's just ****ing with me and wants me to gain tons of weight for something that won't help, certainly won't help fast enough. H wants me to change Drs but this is only the third meeting. She's not listening and I don't know how to make her. She's just ****ing with me. I wish I had my portal set up so I could email her and CC t. I don't want to turn h into a bad guy but he will have to control the meds.