I'm stupid because I'm now obsessed with one of the ways other people harm me and using it to harm myself.
Maybe that makes me sick that I hate it when it's done to me but now I'm getting obsessed to doing it to myself.

Too much going on. Things to decide that I can't. People walking all over me and hurting me. People leaving and coming into my life. Old wounds being torn open.

Not that wounds ever heal

Just want to cut and burn so bad now.