I've been doing better. I was a little on the manic side for a bit, but I still had that fear of my past manic psychosis in me so I pulled out all the stops--resting frequently in a dark room with a weighted blanket, not listening to the songs I used to listen to specifically to rev myself up more, called my pdoc and took the PRN trazodone she sent in a rx for, took cold showers when I felt like I would burst, etc. My ED thoughts were getting bad too, but I've gotten back into hiking now that it's nice out, and I think just knowing my body isn't so fkked that I can lug it up a 4340ft mtn with a loaded winter pack makes me feel so much better. My mindset is more focused on getting my body into doing higher class scrambles more easily than fitting in smaller pants.

How are you doing?