I'm sorry @Mountaindewed I know what I portray suburban soccer mom that *****es her coffee is to hot, that's what I look like too a perfect life, but reality is I'm chronically homeless, chronically hungry but engaging in an eating disorder, self injurious/psychotic which is light-years away from the drugs, sex, ground beef like skin, eating disordered, oding, run away, homicidal kid I was.

I also understand you've only known me on antipsychotics and don't know the years of work this group has our in to get me on them and to trust Drs. I know this is not the worst of it by far.