I see her virtually or else I would probably hand it to her and make myself as small as possible. Weird thing is I'm not depressed so saying I feel bad seems wrong but I don't feel wonderful. I should get the medicine in by Wednesday. I don't know whether to take it as like a token of good faith or wait till I talk to her. I feel if I take it there will be more of a chance I stay out of the hospital because I show I'm willing to try but then I give up her.